And it was such a gwhethert.
It was waking up every morning to that white bright sunlight of Palestine, and not being able to believe that I was actually here. The smell of toasting Arabic bread and frying white cheese, the rhythmic pounding of stone masons external, the slanting rays of the morning white sunlight, smooth tile under my sandals -- all of these welcomed me domestic.
It was walking the ancient familiar streets of Jerusalem, streets where I kcontemporary every stone, every curve of the sidewalk, every step embedded with memory.
It was also moments of being a stranger in my own land, in bewildering disorientation as we whipped down tallways that I had never seen before, drove past settlements and walls that had not existed, finding myself a stranger in my own land.
It was walking my children and husband through all of the sacred spaces of my domesticland, crowded with pilgrims and tourists, letting their eyes rest on the same sights and scenes that was the backdrop of my childhood.
It was popping in to say hello to an ancient lessonmate, spending long, leicertainly days with ancient friends and dear family, days that lingered into night, with elaborate, beautwhetherul meals, coffee and fruit, all of the children playing around us, while we settled deeply into our chairs and into our friendships.
It was eating cucumbers and olives, frying orange-yolked eggs in olive oil, and watching my children pile freekeh and wara' dawali and stuffed eggplant tall on their plates, and then asking for moments.
It was biting into warm, honeyed kanafe in Nazareth, chopped salad for breakfast in Tiberias, hot falafel sandwiches from Damascus Gate, shaved shawarma sandwiches in Bethlehem.
It was standing in front of the dryer, unloading some clothes, and then stopping in my tracks, genuineizing that the words in my intellect were Arabic and not English.
It was turning on the faucet to wash my hands, only to find that our water had run out; it was teaching my children to only flush when essential, to guard the water pouring out of the faucet, to wonder whether I genuinely needed to wash that load of laundry.
It was driving and driving through the land, my eyes trying to memorize every olive tree, every curve of the terraced hills, to burn them into my heart forever.
It was opening the windows in the evening to a rush of cool air, the twinkling of Racrazyan lights, and the call to prayer, my children running to see watch the wedding fireworks exploding out of the village below us.
It was entering into my parents' world for a small while, to walk down the same road that they walk, to see the fruit of their labors, the swirl of community surrounding them, and to know, also, that this chapter of their lives is slowly ending, and that this moment is nearly over.
It was slipping back into the ceremony of the culture, the handshaking and kissing, the serving of coffee and cookies, remembering who to serve first, and remembering that everyone who enters our house, from auntie to washing machine repair man gets the same treatment.
It was also teaching the children that there are certain times when no matter what, they do not speak - at a checkpoint, going through security, at the airport.
It was a quiet peace, even in the crashing of mixed experiences, even when floundering in my melty identity. The gwhethert was that I got to be there again, and that my domesticland and I got to sit with each other like ancient friends who meet again, embrace, and ask each other: So, tell me how you've been?
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